jjooiiceeee :)

may mga taong naka laan daw para satin. yung talagang tao na mag mamahal sa atin ng wagas. yung taong hindi tayo iiwan. yung mag tatama ng mga mali naten. at mag tuturo ng tamang direksyon sa buhay naten.

lahat daw tayo binigyan ng diyos ng kapareha. Pero para saken, nakita ko na siya. Ma aga ko mang sabihin dahil 18 pa lang ako pero alam ko sa sarili ko na nakita ko na siya. sa hinaba haba ng pinagdaanan ko sa buhay kong ito siya palang yung tao na nakapag paramdam saken ng ganito. 

Mahaba na yung pinagsamahan namen. humigit kumulang tatlong taon na. Puno ng iyakan at away. Kami yung tipo ng tao na madalas mag away kahit sa sobrang simpleng bagay lang. kahit napaka walang kwenta pag aawayan namin yan. hobby kasi namin yon. Sabi nga ng iba hindi daw healthy yon - puro nalang kami away. hindi lumilipas ang isang araw na hindi kami mag aaway. pero napatunayan ko na sa tulong ng mga pag hihirap at mga pag aaway na yon doon kami natutuo. minsan kasi sa buhay ng tao - through hardships we learn something ika nga. Dalawa kasi yan eh, either matuto kayo the easy way or matuto kayo the hard way. At nagkataon na kami natuto the hard way. Madalas kami mag iyakang dalawa. madalas kaming mag hiwalay. madalas kaming mapuyat kaka usap lang ng problemang pa ikot ikot lang. Madalas kaming mag away talaga - nakaka turn off no? nakaka walang gana. Pero hindi, sabi nga ng kaibigan ko isa lang tong pag subok na magpapatibay ng pagsasamhan namin kapag nalampasan namen. Madami na kaming pinag daanan. mga bagay na hindi nila maiisip na nagawa na nameng dalawa. Nawalan na din kami ng tiwala sa isa’t isa. at kung tutuusin hindi na nga daw working ang relationship namen. Well, nagkamali sila. nagkamali kame. Kase, hindi kame sumuko. Kahit sunod sunod na problema ang dumating samen hindi kami nagpa tinag. Patuloy kaming lumaban at nag sumikap na mapabuti ang napipintong pagkasira naming dalawa. At ngayon proud akong masasabi na nalampasan namin yung matinding bagyo na dumaan. mas matindi pa kay sendong at ondoy. pero alam kong may mga aftershock pa yan pero hindi. hindi kami mag papatalo. Minsan lang ako maging masipag sa tala ng buhay ko at pag dating saknya 101% ang effort na ginagawa ko. Hindi ako masipag pero isa siya at ang relationship namen na pinag sipagan kong bungkalin at itanim at ngayon nag bubunga na. Paunti unti man at least nag bubunga na. lahat ng paghihirap namin ngayon nagbubunga na. lahat ng saket noon. nagiging ma ayos na. Minsan kasi para maging matatag ka kailangan niyon dumaan sa matinding pag hihirap. 

masaya ako at unti unti na naming nalalampasan ang pag hihirap na naganap samen. lahat ng luha na nalaglag ay para sa lahat ng pag mamahal na meron ako para saknya. hindi ako nag sisisi kung maraming beses man akong umiyak. hindi ko ito ikakahiya. kahit mag muka pa akong tanga. you see, love is not about give and take. it is about giving even though you have nothing else to give (if you know what i mean). it is surrendering your whole self to your partner. and continuous loving her eve if she rejects you a thousand times. 

- - - Yan ang natutunan ko saknya. at alam kong madami pa akong matutunan sa kanya sa mga darating na panahon. masaya akong graduate na ako ng HS degree sa pag sasama namen. College na ako :)

Kasi ang love parang pag aaral yan. Patuloy dapat ang pag aaral mo sa kapartner mo mula kindergarten mo, elementary, Highschool, college, masteral at ang pinaka mataas - Doctorate degree. :)

The one that got away and the one who found its way the one you chased after

This is the story…

My name is Joice Pecson. I am currently taking journalism on the Polytechnic University of the Philippines. I’m a simple yet complex person. I always get to relationships but when true relationships comes my way I tend to settle down and be serious with it. My life was pretty ordinary, that was until Dec. 5, 2009

It was one freezing evening that I met this remarkable girl who turned my life around. It was the Grand Marian Procession a yearly event we “taga-simbhan” goes to. As the night ended and we all head to the van, I came across this girl who happened to annoy me with her cranky “pangbabara” to all of my awesome jokes. There she was seating beside me texting who ever she was texting and whenever I crack joke’s shell be ready to annoy me with her “weh’s and dinga’s.” I can’t say that we connected or what cause all she truly did was annoy me with her cranky attitude. But little did I know that through that cranky attitude I was drawn to her vortex of existence.

I was well amazed by her attitude, to be able to interrupt me with my jokes knowing that we are completely strangers – what a strange girl eh? But that approach set’s her shining with the rest and thus making me interested to her. I got her number (or my friend gave it to me) for whatever the reason I texted her and then we clicked unexpectedly.

We started hanging out. And then eventually we started dating. It was 4 years since that first happened but still every time we’re together she makes me feel like for once I am appreciated and she really does makes me complete. Every moment was promising even the petty fights and crying nights. All of the tears I have shed were not regret but thanks. As cliché as it may sound but I am truly the joice I am now all thanks to her.

She was my truest of true love and she IS still the one.We may not be together now for some unexplainable reason but still the feeling is mutual. We still care for each other the same way we did for the last few years. We still share the same laughter we have for the last moments we shared. And still, we are happy with our position with our lives – regardless. We detached the label we had for the last years but we didn’t detach the feelings we had in our hearts. And I know in God’s time we’ll be back in each other arms. I just have to be patient.

I loved her, and I still love her. I don’t really care if it takes a year or so because none of that really matters now. All I really do care about is chasing her to whenever she’ll go to whatever she’ll do. I don’t really know if it’s the rational way to do but this is what my hearts is screaming of. I know for a fact that in due time all of my efforts will pay off. But for now I won’t get tired on chasing her to the ends of the rainbow or the world – I don’t really give a damn. Because when you really want something to be in your life chase after it before some else’s get’s a hold of it.

My friend once told me to keep the faith in my heart and that’s what I am doing right now. I am keeping the faith, the trust and the love I know we both share and have in our hearts.

tinnkerbell:

You must never underestimate the power of the eyebrow.

It’s cute with that weird beard and stuff.